Hedwig Dreams

Just wanted to drop a note that I am relocating my site, "Hedwig Is Dreaming". The site is still available through the address www.hedwig.is.dreaming.org, but if any of you have bookmarked the page, you should update the bookmark.

And a Thank You to Ziphoid who kindly has offered me hosting. You are so nice :-)

It is time for christmas once again and this will be my last post before christmas...

Christmas, given my current situation is not all jolly... but still I think this will be a better christmas then the last few years... And the christmas presents... I managed to get a few sorted out, not completely satisfied with them, but well... they just have to have some understanding for me being sick...

And yes... I am still sick... I wish I could get well NOW... Not only do I REALLY wanna get back to work... I have feeling exciting things wait for me in the new year and I want the opportunity to be able to fully enjoy them...

And... what else... IRC... hehe... I do enjoy... and I have gain some admirers ;-)... enough for the time being... I quite satisfied with the turnout of being on IRC so far... Have met some nice ppl there... *smirks*

And I really enjoy skype... :D

But, yeah... I do look forward to the new year... but I think I will get to you about that in an other post... preferably around new year perhaps ;-)

So... I guess there is one thing left to say:
Merry Christmas you all, and to all a good night...

And hugs for all on my f-list :-)

I was going trough my old writing and I found some stuff worth publishing... In mine opinion anyway... I put one up at Hedwig Is Dreaming. And there is the other one I don't know what to do with... I found it kinda funny thou... And for your amusement (hopefully) I will post it here...

And for the record... This has never really happened to me in this way... But I was speculating one night...

( Follow the red demon... )

I just wanna give (even more) hugs to kseenaa, astroflammante and tekiila. It was great seeing you again :D

Pizza with friends... It's so nice :-)

And good luck with the thesis *holds thumbs*

I simply must share this one, just for the sake of it... And due to a skype coversation I had last night *giggles*...

Thanks for telling me the story of this guys...

And to my hard studying friends: Enjoy!

By Erwin Beekveld.

I will only say this:

!hobbits
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I can not believe people actually read this journal. On IRC people have asked to friend me and some have asked about updates... Some have pointed out that they actually have read what I have written... And some even told me that it gave them some perspective on things...

I really don't know what makes this journal readable... and I'm still in chock... But anyways... Thanks for the kind words!

To all the people from IRC I would like to say:
Hi you guys and gals! I really enjoy hanging out with you in the channel (otherwise I wouldn't come back would I?). *smiles*

And I would do shameless commercial for you if it wasn't for the fact that my ex can read this (he is a computer geek too). I don't want him ruining all my fun so...

And yes, I have started to get my writing skills back after one and a half year of total lack of creativity. I write new stuff. The problem is that I am afraid it is to revealing of myself. I am a social being that are affected by other people, and writing about what you feel towards other is perhaps the most revealing thing you can write. Not to say that it can be revealing about others, and that really is a "no, no" for me on the net so...

I'm working on getting around those in my texts atm... I will get it right someday I hope...

Ok... This is just to weird not to post. As some of you may know I like stuffed animals, specially teddy bears. But this is something new:

Why don't you give a stuffed virus to someone special.

Or was that to someone you don't like?

Well I definitly don't have one of those... But I did see they have the kissing disease...

Someone requested my Icons. Well, what do you know... I have uploaded them all to my website: Hedwig Is Dreaming. Just click on "Images" and you got my entire gallery of them.

Comment down below and please follow the guidelines stated at the site.

And a thanks to Ziphoid for making the my TabelGen php-script working. It really helped when creating an Icon gallery :D

Computer geek side... Progress yes... Added several to my contact list... Both just nice to talk to persons and single computer geeks ;-)

Now I'm just doubting if this was a good idea... Or rather: How much of a mess will this get me into???

Life other than that is... well.. Still haven't gotten my 3 room apartment in order. I don't know if it is me that's lazy or if it is the fact that I work all the time, or the lack of furniture in the living room. And do mean it. It completely empty. I need to go to IKEA. But I don't have a car and, I'm sort of going on a trip soon. Perhaps after that I will go and check out sofas and stuff some weekend... By bus... Not to mention being sick for the last couple of days didn't help.

Some of you have mentioned facebook to me. Yeah, I'm sort of split on what to think about that. Yes it would be a nice way to keep in touch with new and old friends. The thing that bothers me is, well, I have some coworkers there too. And really, I hold a rather uncontroversial profile at work and don't tell them things I might get trouble with one way or the other. My sexual orientation is one of those things. And private... You know me ;-)... I a bit different. Mixing those two might not give a good result... And I would rather be myself then some "lame halfway compromise to make noone suspect the true nature of me" on my spare time...

Not to mention things could get complicated if... someone... joined... Hard to explain without being to specific...

I'll keep thinking thou...

Hm... So I found this article on SvD... read it here (swedish)... It turns out I'm on the wrong side of the Atlantic ocean... Dang!

Anyways... I found the computer geek hiding place... IRC... I started talking to some there... One informed me that geeks are not that outspoken and have a low self esteem... testing this theory on other seems to confirm it...

This might cause problems... Hm...

And I did find some interesting stuff... but I'll keep 'em to myself for now... ;-)

I have reason to believe that it may very well be so that I am attracted to nerds... (I will not swear on it... I may change ;-) )

Do to my history in relationships and unanswered crushes it seem reasonable...
Library nerds (Or is it geeks...? I that case, ad geeks)
Computer nerds... (I guess you could see them as geeks too... Yes... ad geeks)
more computer nerds...

Anyways... So I'm single, right?

Where on earth do you find single nerds (and geeks)? I know that at least computer nerds sit at home staring at the computer...

(Yeah I have taken Ipren today and in my world... that's heavy stuff... gives me bad sense of humor...) *Giggles away to the kitchen*

Did I mention I cut my hair...

It is much shorter now... Before it was about one decimeter from my waist... and now it is from little over my shoulder and up... in different lengths so to speak... can still get it up in a ponytail thou... A little corny ponytail... but still...

Yeah and it does look so much nicer now...

And the bus driver still ask me if I want a whole och half ticket... Thank you so very much... I TURN 24 THIS SUMMER!!! You stop riding on half a ticket when you are 16... :|

And yet another apartment I didn't like...

Hopelessness comes to mind... Friends know why... I feel too alone in this world... really... It sucks...

Well... soon enough it will be work again... I would like to say "Thank God!"... But would it be to go to far?

I got a new job. A good job. With good pay. I am going to be first economist/informant of one of the administrative offices in the local municipality. A maternity leave... but still... What do you think will happen after at least one year as first economist? Can they really bug me about not having any work experience then? And will the pension overloaded local municipality want me to leave after one year?

The possibilities is endless, the hope for the future is bright... And I am sooo happy... And it really seems like a fun, versatile and qualified work...

This means I can finally begin the search for a new apartment... This might take a while though... I won't settle for the first available... I want a home, not a sleeping place... A home for me... Where might this be?

And some other good news is that my bf is likely to get summer job in his local municipality. This is many miles away thou... But I am happy for him, I really am... I just wish it would have been closer...

Because kseenaa made me do it...

Comment and I will:
1 - Tell you why I friended you.
2 - Associate you with a song/film.
3 - Tell a random fact about you.
4 - Tell a first memory about you.
5 - Associate you with a character/pairing.
6 - Ask something I've always wanted to know about you.
7 - Tell you my favorite user pic of yours [if it pertains].
8 - In retort, you must spread this disease in your LJ.

I'm working on a real entry...

Just a note:
I need new social acquaintance... Everyone I know and just to know seem to have disappeared in different directions... Including my bf... He has found a practical training place in Jönköping so he's not here on the weekdays... and is apparently to tired to visit this weekend... SO... I have four walls... a ceiling and a flor to stare at... I beginning to hate that... Need to clean... but it's kind of boring... I could go out... alone... Maybe I'll go visit mom...

Where do you find new friends anyways? I had no trouble at the Student Union... But I am no student anymore... and from what I have heard it is kind of dead... The things I used to like anyways....

So any ideas?

What do you think of my new layout btw?

I got a job... as of this monday I acctually work and get paid for it... WEEE!!! It's only for three months... but hey... It's a job... And I got another interview soon so... I'm hoping...

And here's the thing... (If you voted for the sitting government I suggest you read this closely):
I got this job ONLY because of the fact that I have had three months of practical training there as an unemployed youth. After three months the decided that they liked me and wanted to have me there during the introduction of a new system. They wouldn't have hired anyone if I haden't been there and showed them what I could do. They wouldn't have hired me if I just had asked them to. NO. My practical training was the reason they hired me... And thanks to the new government, not many if any will have this oppertunity during the next four years... Lets give a warm hand to you for taking away other peoples chance of getting a job... WELL DONE!!! (Irony inserted in the last two sentences if anyone missed that) Not to talk of everything else you have managed in the three months of your ruling... I won't even get started on that...

As for it only being three months... It's the local municipality... Yeah... they don't budget these sort of things... Me... they happened to have some money over due to some factors and decided I was worth it... But only enough for three months...

Well there you have my big news at the moment... I probably could rant some more but I really should be packing, packaging, and stuff... so I guess the only thing left to say is:

Merry Christmas you all, and to all a good night...

Ok... seriously... There is something very wrong with my userpics... the standard, is not always posted when I don't chose... and it keeps changing... I chose one and another one is posted...

What is wrong with this thing...

It's my first try at icons so do be kind. This is what I do when I'm bored ;)

These are some icons I've done over the last six month... That's a long time and I must say I have evolved more skill and better knowledge of the program during this time. So the earlier ones are not that great, and most of them is a result of testing diffrent things. But I will include them incase someone is intressted and for feedback.

1-27: Arwen
28-44: Anime
45-49: Misc
50-55: Friends fandoms

Teasers:


( Icons under cut )

Since I have started doing icons and other things, some posted and others maybe posted in the future I thought I better start a resource listing to give proper credit. I will add more as I go along...

( Resource listing )

Without going through too much of what I have done all spring (mostly thesis work)... As of this Friday I have a degree/diploma certificate that says I have a:

Master of Science with a major in Business Administration with a specialisation in Organisation and Management

That I think is pretty nice...

Oh, I'm currently unemployed so if any of you happen to know anyone who need a management accountant or someone who just knows economics, just send me a message...

Still... I got my Masters and I am happy for it so... *SMILES*...

I think i actually had one of the strangest and most hilarious nights at the student union pub on friday... Besides my boyfriend I brought a new friend from school... she and I have been working hard the last weeks on a group assignment wanted to celebrate that the whole thing was over and the old student that she is, wanted to relive the pub and see if it had changed...

What really happen that night I'm not exactly sure... I remember at on time going to the bar, talking to kseenaas boyfriend, saying "Don't know if I'm should get drunk or sober up". And no I don't usually drink alcohol and this night was no exception. The only thing I had was two coca cola (which was bad enough since I go hyper). And for the record my bf spilled rather early in the night what text was on my all to famous t-shirt. She didn't seem to even blink. Still I wonder if she got the fact that I am bisexual or if she just don't give a damn.

This night turned weirder when two unknown guys turned up at our table. They where drunk and the where as she put it "blonds" or idiots you may say. Both apperently not single thou no gf in sight. They where the "normal" kind, meaning everyone different then them was not normal to them. They started discussing homosexuality. When the discussion turned bisexuality, I couldn't take it anymore, got up and walked off...

and still... the evening ended with me being invited to the dance flor by her to dance with her and another guy... my bf don't dance so he stayed behind watching...

I'm confused...